abundance, the universe, what does it want?

So, I seriously almost got sucked into a "data entry" job i.e. you sign up, they give you the info to type into a form, and you get paid for it each time you type. Since I am reeeeeeeeally good at sitting in front of the computer for hours at a time, I thought, wow! I could do that!

(See, this is the thing: If Ritalin was a popular drug to hand out when I was in school, guess who would've been the first kid they'd give them to.....It's not ADHD I think I have, given the fact that i'm lazy, it's just ADD.
Sometimes I am totally amazed at the lack of focus and direction I demonstrate, but especially if what I need to focus on bores the crap out of me, which is damn near everything. But if I am actually interested in something, I cannot STOP doing it and nothing i mean nothing, can distract me from it.)

and now you're wondering, what the hell is she talking about? this has what to do with anything? okay, okay....

The computer, it appears, is a shiny, enthralling object that I cannot stop staring endlessly into, therefore feeding my disordered mind, and my thought was that making money while feeding the beast would be PERFECT, wouldn't it now?

All right. So the data entry job appeared to be "made for me". Which is so, so, bloody naive and something "everyone" says when they see ads like that. I feel pathetic admitting I even had the "made for me" thought. Another thing: you pay to work for these companies. Some are refundable, but....really, why should you pay to work?

Then I start researching. Of course discovering that some of them, you can actually make money but you are basically making ads for the job you just took, and people need to be sucked in to the same deal and pay in order for you to get paid. Which I kind of expected, in the back of my mind. Now.
Now that you are wondering what this really has to do with abundance and the universe. Say you take a job like this, because there is possibility you could make money, it's just off people who did exactly what you did, and the chain continues endlessly: What are you saying to the universe?

"Hey universe, I believe in scarcity, the only way I can make money is through knowing someone will make the same mistake I did."

It's like beating your head against the wall. Right?

How do you show the universe/your higher self/the collective/your subconscious that you are abundant? What does an abundant person think like? These questions are all not worded quite right.

What I mean is, how does one feel when they know they are abundant? How do you force yourself to feel that way? I've tried the "spend your money like you have tons" exercise, and that was an exercise in "how to go broke", but only, obviously, because the proper headspace wasn't involved.

It's like abundance is this delicately perched mindset you need to find within and also need to be in the PERFECT mental position to create, but once you do it, I think it's like riding a bike, you don't forget.

Or maybe, I should stop thinking, and start allowing it to occur. The overactive mind gets in the way of positive change.

So, the moral of the story is, if I want to sit in front of the computer for hours, just start typing here.....at least I don't have to pay $95 to do it........

data entry, abundance, ADD, reality