dear universe

Dear Universe,

Throughout my life I have grown to trust you.
My eyes were open; I was connected.
The lessons and the mysteries were adored, appreciated and loved.

You taught me that I do deserve love.
You taught me that I can accept happiness in my life.
You taught me that I can be open and trusting and that it is okay to jump in with two feet.
You showed me that being content in my misery was not acceptable and that I can be content in breaking down my walls and being vulnerable to someone.

Yes, I trusted you. You gave me exactly what I was looking for. You gave me the person I asked you for. A person I can love, trust and be happy with.

But you took that away from me in a blink of an eye. For what purpose? To show me that I was wrong in breaking down my walls and accepting happiness?

I now feel that I cannot be happy in love, but happy in misery. I have come full circle and am now back where I started from.


To this I say.........Fuck you!



Love,
Tosh